We had the Primary Program at church today. And I was nervous about it all weekend. It was my last opportunity to serve as the Primary Chorister. Even though this was going to be my 3rd program, I was worried about it turning out just right. We had a practice on Friday, but anybody who has been to a pre-program Primary practice knows that they are a nightmare. So I was just sure {the same as every year} that it would be a disaster and that I was going out with a bang. And not a good one.

But, those little ones always surprise me. Although I got to church feeling like I was going to throw up, we made it. And it was so wonderful. And although I got a little teary-eyed a few times, I felt so great when the final song was sung and I had held my composure fairly well. And then the closing prayer was said, and for some reason I just lost it. And when I say that I lost it, I mean I was sobbing. Uncontrollably. And somewhat embarassingly. It was a weird feeling because I love being in Young Women's. But I'm so going to miss Primary. I love those little people. And even when I don't like them sometimes, I still love them always. And it has been such a growing experience for me. And I'm a better person for having done it and for that I will miss it. I will miss being the "singing teacher" that all the kids love to see.

I also have to say how proud I am of my girls. Ashlyn was terrified when the Primary Presidency asked her to give a talk in the program. She didn't want to do it at all and when she stood up I could tell she was so nervous, but once she got to the microphone she was fabulous. And I'm not just saying that because I'm her mom--okay, maybe that's a little part of it, but, really, she was great and I'm so glad that she stepped out of her comfort zone to do it. Carly was a hit for being so cute. She didn't have a speaking part, but she really took to heart the instructions to smile while singing. Actually, she was trying so hard to keep smiling that she forgot to sing.

So I'm feeling a little lighter, tonight, now being down to a single calling in the church. It's been a while since I've been there, and I'm excited to focus on the Young Women. But I may just have to sneak into the Primary every once in a while to visit my friends. {And it might be a good excuse to get out of Gospel Doctrine. I went in there today for the first time since we moved here 2 1/2 years ago. I'm telling you, I don't know if I can handle that.}